I want to get to a place in life where I can go to work and be able to have the strength to get through the obstacles I encounter. I get so overwhelmed, jealous, and anxious at my job. I believe the problem is me. I’ve been taking a hard look at myself. It wasn’t until yesterday night that I realized that I have the power to change how I feel, but I must show myself compassion. I can take steps to end the negativity that is flowing through me right now. I don’t have to beat myself for my past mistakes and behavior. I can choose peace and kindness. I can choose to live in harmony. Harmony is a word I reflected on a lot last night. How am I living in harmony? Why am I always talking about things that don’t have anything to do with building harmony at all?
I’ve been reading The Green Witch: Your Complete Guide to the Natural Magic of Herbs, Flowers, Essential Oils, and More by Arin Murphy-Hiscock. I’m contemplating following a different path in life. From The Green Witch, I gathered ” the concepts of healing, harmony, and balance are all key to the green witch’s practice and outlook on life.” One of the points that stood out for me on page 16 was “the modern green witch understands that humanity impacts the natural world, not only through how individuals treat it, but also via the energy created by their feelings and beliefs. It goes on to say that “just as nature’s energy affects us, so too does our energy affect nature, and that effect isn’t always positive.” I started asking myself what type of energy am I bringing to the world. Why do I gossip? Why do I bring anger? Why do I bring sadness? What choices am I making to solve the problems I encounter at home and at work?
One thing that I told myself that I need to get a hold of is not using positive energy for validation from others, but I need to use it to help others. I need to help the environment around me. I have to learn to improve my surroundings. I also need to overcome depression. A big part of the reason why I don’t have any energy is because of my attitude and not taking power over the things I can control.
While I was angry and frustrated at work, I could have took my mugs and teas to work to calm my energy. I could have prepared a healthy lunch to boost my energy. I could have chosen to focus on my work instead of gossip at the office. I could have looked for things to improve at work. I could have pulled out a coloring book or a journal and wrote down a few notes to keep myself going.
I sat there and decided to sit in pain for hours. Pain was all I received.
I’m going to take better control of my moods at work.
Here’s a list I’m going to tackle:
- create a journal
- drink tea to improve mood
- study a subject or read over books while at the desk
- make a to-do list
- focus on projects at hand
- stop gossiping and don’t follow gossip
- where clothes that help you identify with nature and happiness
- be compassionate
- have empathy
- focus on the good around you
- be grateful