One of my posts from the beginning discouraged sewing while in a bad mood. Honestly, I still don’t like the idea of sewing for loves ones when I’m sick or angry. I find that I make too many mistakes when I’m not feeling well. Overall, it’s just not a great sewing experience. However, if it is a personal quilting project it should be based on your needs. Working with you hands can be therapeutic for many. I’ve discovered that doing a little bit of patchwork with quilting throughout the month helps me get through periods of loneliness, tough times, and moments when I need to be strong.
When I commit to working on personal projects, I do a lot of praying and reflecting on life. Honestly, I enjoy spending time just working with my hands. I also get lost in my thoughts. Once my rotary skills improved, I enjoyed cutting fabric squares to piece together a small quilt top. Achieving accurate seams is the most challenging for me. Despite my mistakes, the journey is always more important to me than anything else. The whole process of working on a quilt, gives me the energy to keep fighting.
Life has taught me that I’m responsible for loving myself as well as creating my own happiness. I know it is recommended to reach out to people when you are experiencing tough times, but for me I just end up confuse. You don’t need to tell everyone your problems. I recommend talking to a professional. However, there are times that you need periods alone where you can work through problems yourself. Over the summer, I prayed a lot, and I knew I was tired of feeling like I was in the dumps. I decided that I wanted to get better at quilting. I needed a new focus or goal.
Each week, I was at my house, learning how to prepare a quilt top. The more it came together, the better I started to feel about myself. I don’t really know how to describe it, but when you make something on your own, it’s like an empowering feeling. I felt useful again. I was learning new skills, and the great thing about it was that I wasn’t depending on anyone else to validate me.
One of my most recent quilts features a lot of cats. I’ll admit that I’m a cat lady with no cats. I wanted to make a personal project. It’s not perfect, but I smile at it all the time. I hang it over my headboard. What’s different about this quilt, is that it was the first time I attempted to bind a quilt. Binding the quilt was hard, and I made a lot of mistakes. Overall, the project reminds me of my potential. It reminds me that I’m capable.
Making quilts taught me how to start creating my own life again. I was learning how to express myself. I found it hard to get negative being surrounded by so much color all the time. I say to myself sometimes “when life gives you lemons, make a quilt.” I don’t think the saying is original at all, but I tell myself those very words when I’m stressed. I will always have problems, but at least I’m not sitting around dwelling on them.