It’s been a little bit over a year since I’ve posted a blog. At one time, I was uncertain about the direction I wanted to take my blog. I knew that I wanted to be a professional, but I felt like my blog was lacking purpose. I think that was true for my personal life as well. For many years, my story was related to depression and how my work-life contributed to it. One day I decided that I wanted to change my story. I decided that I wasn’t my depression. I wasn’t the negative things that I believed all these years.
I took a break from blogging for a while to focus on new goals and hobbies. I’m 30 years old now, and for the first time in my life I feel like I’m passionate about the work and the things I’m doing in life. Back in my twenties, I focused a lot on how everything was making me depressed. Two factors I recognize that contributed to the depression was lack of identity and community.I didn’t have a strong sense of self. Because I wasn’t social and didn’t do a lot of hobbies back then, I couldn’t relate to people. I didn’t have anything to talk about. I must admit, I wasn’t a very interesting person.
Today, I’m an aspiring quilter who loves petting new fabric. I love patchwork, woodland animals, and all things cute. I love visiting the PNW, eating vegan food, and exploring all things natural and healthy. I do have a day job as a public librarian. I enjoy watching television shows from the 1990s. I also venture into other crafts such as knitting and crochet. Someday, I hope to have an Etsy baby store full of warm quilts and cuddly accessories. That me! I wasn’t those dark things I told myself all those years. It just wasn’t true.
In life we go through changes. What I’ve learned is that challenging times bring out the strength in a person. I’ve learned to accept life when things don’t go my way. I know how to cope when trouble comes. I’m better at picking myself back up after a stumble. I didn’t get here alone. It was God, good people, and recognizing the blessings that life has to offer.